My dear friends,
I hope that this email is finding you wrapping up your work for another week and ready to enjoy a long weekend! I want to continue to thank you for your prayers, support, acts of kindness, love, and gifts. Your support is truly overwhelming. I praise God for you many times per day.
I arrived in Columbia early this morning to go to our 9:00 chemo appointment at SCOA. Dad was so very weak. It took us a few stops (walk and sit, walk and sit…) to get from his bed upstairs to the car. But, we made it! He agreed to let us get a wheel chair when we arrived at the clinic.
I must admit to you that I struggled with about 3 hours of fear early this morning. I was afraid that when the lab checked his levels that they were not going to be where they needed to be for a chemo treatment. I haven’t studied up on it enough yet to know if the concern is if they are too high or too low. I guess they want them to be “just right”. After getting here and seeing him struggle to walk my concern grew.
We went to the lab where he had the necessary bloodwork. I knew many of you were praying. I could feel it. While we were waiting I just prayed to God that His perfect will would be done. I would fight not to be disappointed if that meant no chemo treatment today. When “Matt” rounded the corner and said “Ok, Dr. Fabian…let’s go” all I could say was “Thank you , Jesus!” I am pretty sure I was more excited over this news than I would have been over what I thought was exciting 4 weeks ago! His numbers were “just right”. He had lost five pounds since last Friday.
We were at the clinic for a few hours. He received plenty of fluids, his chemo, a new med for his nausea, and a steroid. The chairs are super comfortable and he reclined and rested. We talked some (well, he listened to me tell him stories of my week) and it was just fine. While we were there they brought a woman balloons and she got to ring a bell because it was her last treatment. Everyone clapped and cheered. How cool is that?
We are home, had lunch (Jan’s bread will make us all better, right?!), and he is sound asleep. Mom has gone to run errands and get out of the house for a while.
I wish now that I hadn’t been afraid this morning. Don’t I know by now that my precious God has a perfect and sovereign plan? Why would I begin to think that he should get chemo if God didn’t? Human nature I guess. If it is possible to hug God’s neck through prayer and song…that has been done. He has gently shown me, once again, to just keep trusting.
So do not fear, for I am with you;
   do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
   I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Isaiah 41:10
We have an appointment with the dr. on Monday morning. If there are no major updates I will just send the next chapter of The Colonel Chronicles (hey, that has a ring to it) next week after chemo.  Once again, if you want off this email list please let me know.
I love each of you and pray that God will richly bless you as much as you have been a blessing to me and my family.
* Hugs *
Mary Anne

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